My blog, my life, my thoughts_

2008-04-15T22:29:00.001+08:00

When a train have lost steam, it wouldn't matter if an obstacle was stuck in its track.

2008-03-13T02:04:00.001+08:00

If dreams are the direct opposites of reality, why do people dream and create a fruitful impression which actually turns out to be fruitless.

2008-03-13T01:55:00.002+08:00

Do not assume, the revelation of assumptions can be astoundingly devastating.

2008-02-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

Ever wondered what makes a person fight a losing battle?

A battle where all the odds are heavily stacked against him. An almost foregone conclusion lies admist a thick cauldron of doubt and uncertainty.

2008-01-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Negativity... I'm sensing negativity everywhere... people complaining and venting their frustrations... but think about it... we can complain now... but eventually when all is dusted and over... we're back to square one... so what's the point of those rantings... But one point of contradictory does exist... am I too evasive of my feelings or am I really a perpetually optimistic guy. This is something that even I myself find it hard to comprehend. I really don't. Haiz~

Look, this is how ironic a person can be. Here I am putting my foot against negativity and the next moment I'm showing signs of it. Haha... human being is really an unfathomable species, you never what you're gonna think of or do at the very next moment. You can do all the planning you want... but what's gonna happen will eventually happen. Or is it just me? Think about it.

2008-01-10T12:56:00.000+08:00

It's Thursday and I'm at home updating my blog.

Yesterday, Wednesday was my last day of my first week in SIM RMIT. I seriously feel that my time table is very slack. 3 days per week and each day last about 3 hrs? Sometimes, even 1 or 2 days per week. And furthermore, with this odd arrangement of timing, it's really hard to get a part time job. There's totally no fixed time table for each week!

Saw alot of familiar faces in the campus. Ranging from my secondary school friends, poly friends, BMT friends, to my friends in Provost. Haha... like what Mark said... this is like a real life facebook with links from everywhere. Simply unbelievable. It's like our meeting is more of fate than coincidence.

Speaking of facebook, I think it's a real phenomenon. It's taking the world by storm. Going by my sources, it's a brain child by someone my age~ and he's raking in the millions now.

It isn't a really outstanding feat by all means, it is the results of grabbing your opportunity when it comes. There's only procrastination blocking your path of success. And when I say procrastination, I deemed it as fear, lack of courage, brooding too much over it. Things that simply hinders your way to reach your ultimate goal.

And I'm really sad to say that procrastination has really been a road block in my life. There are many things that I know I can achieve, or even with a glimpse of hope of achieving. But, I just lack that bit of something.

"The unique spark, a spark that can change your entire life forever. The spark could be just there for an instant and it might never appear again."

Every single time, a spark ignites. I chose to ignore it. And when it began to flickers, procrastination steps in. Eventually, when it disappears... regrets will take their mark. Just when will I learn to replace regrets with hope.

2008-01-01T12:26:00.000+08:00

Exceptional firework display! Enjoy!

2007-12-31T08:57:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!! eve~ to one and all!

Here comes the time of the year where people from all over the world gathers to say "sayonara" to year 2007 and usher in year 2008 with ecstatic celebrations of jubilant joy and laughter.

A little recollection of my year 2007...

Some major events:-
Met my target of an IPPT Silver after much hardwork and training
Nasal Operation 2 days before my ORD
ORD in 090907 (Biggest Event of Year 2007!)
Had a taste of workin in a Marine Company as a web designer.

Guess I only had a few major events in my life lol. Pathetic~

Something is missin... haiz... sianzation...

2007-12-27T13:53:00.000+08:00

Glory Glory Man United! High chance of finishing as winter champions!!! Heading into year 2008. It's gonna be a tough road to retain the Premiership. But faith lies with the Devils!

Alright, Premiership aside. My job here in Tritex has been rather plain sailing. Good environment, good company and most importantly I'm enjoying what I'm doing.

I've finally finished my first web design project. No spectacular flash animation, just plain simple html and css. Not a work that I'm really proud off... further improvements can be done. But, well I guess different people do have different views about things. My ideas will never always be the best. I'm still in my learning phase, so I'll just have to be humble and accept any criticism that's being poured on me.

My term in this company is coming to an end and sad to say, I've seriously not acquainted myself well with most of the staff here. That is really pathetic~ no, it's a total disgrace!

2007-11-22T07:54:00.000+08:00

All right, it's been a long time since I last blogged. What have I been up to lately? Workin~ lol. All my friends have started workin one month ago and I'm just startin. No excuses, I'm not blaming my surgery for that. One word - PROCRASTINATION. I've got into a habit of procrastinating thigns that are suppose to be done.

Maybe, staying at home for too long has worsened this condition. Well, I'm glad that I'm workin now. As an "less than" amatuer web designer that is~ lol. Hope I can finish my virgin website.

2007-10-26T03:00:00.000+08:00

A tragic end to a wonderful work of art! My PC has finally decided to give up its life support and self terminated.

R.I.P - Date: 25 October 2007
Certified time of death: 1248 Hrs (+8GMT)

Hoping to unveil a new customized replacement soon~

Assembling, tweaking, installing, downloading, arranging - Estimated time of completion - 48 HRs

Wish me luck!

Oh ya... selling second hand graphic cards, motherboard and RAM... email me at ang5571@gmail.com

2007-10-11T14:17:00.000+08:00

Haha, I'm getting better in Sodoku. Playing Sodoku X now... even the numbers lying across the diagonal must be unique. Very challenging but fun!

2007-10-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

Some new songs by our very own 绝对Superstars

一秒钟的永远 - 潘嘉丽

每个人的心中都有一个小的梦
像蜻蜒点在微微涟漪水中
涟漪往往只会泛起短短一秒钟
却让人怀念的好久好久

在我们的爱情中总是太多风波
忘记它才能安然度过

释怀后的拥抱虽短感动却很久
就在爱情离开了我那么久以后
我还清晰记得在你怀中丰富感受
只一秒钟却永远了

虽然许多爱的可能在门外经过
为甚么我还深锁自己无动于衷
是一秒钟的天长地久深深包围我
只一秒钟却成为了永远

背叛 - 石欣卉&陈世维

开心伤心谁来决定
用尽真心却得不到任何回应
心如此安静

记性注定像个刺青
刺青内心一度沉睡的旧感情
如此不安宁

牵着你的左手
你右手悬空
仿佛是有所保留

握着你的右手你有话不说
隔了层沉默
你慢慢疏离我

无声的背叛
原来失去是那么简单
你是你(我)要的
为何变成一个陌生人
来陪伴

对你的背叛
是回忆要时间去替换
我尽力勇敢但如果你已下判我
只能说遗憾

坚定决定谁会关心
用尽全力
却得不到同样回应
(却得不到同样回应)
何时能平静 Ho~

耐性扫兴不断提醒提起内心
还不确定的新感情
(还不确定的新感情)
如何能同行

牵着你的左手你右手悬空
一定是有所保留
握着你的右手你绝口不说
隔一层沉默
我慢慢疏离我

无声的背叛
原来失去是那么简单
你(我)是你要的
不要这场用猜疑交手
的冷战

对你的背叛是不要个陌生人陪伴
我尽力勇敢
但如果你已下判我
只能说遗憾

对你的背叛
是不要个陌生人陪伴
我尽力勇敢
但如果你已下判我
只能说遗憾

2007-10-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

Latest news from Old Trafford - Michael Carrick is OUT for 6 weeks! This is due to an elbow injury suffered in the latter stages of the UEFA Champion League midweek encounter with Roma. With Carrick and Hargreaves OUT, United center midfield department is seriously depleted. O'Shea might be drafted back in to partner Scholes in the center of the field with Ronaldo and Nani running down the flanks. Or "the out of sorts" Anderson can be given the chance to redeem himself. All in all, it's just bad news for the Old Trafford faithful~

2007-10-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

I've started my workout regime. Starting with 3 sets, I hope to increase it by a set every week. Long time never workout, my arms are feeling really frail and weak. I hope to be able to hit the gym in a month time.

2007-10-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

Damn, I'm rottin my life away. Sleep at 0300 and wake up at 1400! WTF is this! Somebody save me from this vicious cycle.

Apparently, I was supposed to meet Han and KT for some gym session. Woke up at 0830, went back to sleep and slept way past our meeting time. Seriously, I'm in need of some sleep discipline here. My projected schedule to nurse myself back to full fitness has been disrupted by my own laziness.

My nose is almost a 100%. My mind is still dangling around the 60% mark. Someone pls knock some sense into me! The more I rot at home, the slacker I'm getting.

The bottom line is, I DON'T WANT to be a SLACKER!

2007-09-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

Still recuperating at the moment. It has been weeks since I ORDed. And I've been rotting at home since.

No exercise for 2 weeks, that's the order of the doctor. And I've been adhering t0 it so diligently that I've grown so weak now. Simply pathetic~

I think it might have been a wrong decision for me to have the surgery 2 days before my ORD. Cause now I've to pay my follow up medical reviews from my own pocket instead of utilising my 11B. And I've been unable to enjoy the joy of ORD. Particularly, on that faithful date itself. I had to head straight for home right after I've collected my NRIC and missed out on some wild celebrations. My projected meeting with my BMT mates was also disrupted. In the end, I celebrated my ORD by lying in bed with cotton gauze paste right across my nose. What a bummer~

For 2 weeks, I could eat nothing but icy cold food. Even the porridge have to be cold lol. Well, this was to prevent the steam from causing complications to my wound. And I've to wash my nose with EntSOL solution 2 times per day with each time being a re-enactment of a drowning scene. The solution will enter thru the left nostril and make its painful exit thru the right nostril. It wasn't always a smooth passage though, sometimes the solution simply refuse to exit and goes twirling at the back of my nose. And that's the drowning feelin!

Going out was a hassle, blood filled mucus dripping out of my nostril was a ghastly sight to behold. Subsequently, I restricted myself to only go out when necessary. Of cause, when you stay at home you ought to find something to do, I returned back to the realm of PangyaSEA.

It's an online game of fantasy golf. I was playing it before my enlistment and now I'm back after 2 years of absence. Childish or kiddy one might call it, but before you carry on blabbering, try it... you might find yourself on the losing end to a 6 yr old kid. The game itself takes up alot of your concentration and it need some strategic planning and plotting. But the gist of the game lies in quick and accurate fingers coordination. I've even played with gamers in their fifties before. Never too old to try out new things eh!

I gotta end this entry by saying that I'm finally gonna slowly train back to my full fitness. Wish me luck!

2007-09-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

It's been a long, and I mean a looooong absence from the blogging scene. This long absence could only justified by my own laziness.

Well, another reason could by my sudden realisation that my command of the language have gone all haywire. It's an utter disgrace! But still, no use wallowing in my self pity, I need to buck up! My vocabulary stinks, my grammar is all jumbled up and my spelling is that of a P6 student, or even lower. Sometimes, I really can't comprehend what is happening!

Feeling bits and pieces of regrets forming up. Had I done better during my poly days, I could have entered the local Us. Now, I have to make do with SIM. Not that I'm looking down on the standards of SIM. But the fees are totally exhorbitant! Daylight extortion! Well, in my terms at least. I should have done better and I know I'm capable of it. Too late, it's all too late. Now, I could only hope that RMIT accepts my registration and the rest is up to me.

ORD in 5 days time. Mixed emotions? I'm definitely happy to leave my uniform in the closet. At the same time, I'm feeling rather sad to leave my friends that I've made since I started to don on the Army No4. BMT mates, MP Basic mates, APC mates and most importantly my Gombak mates!

I might not even be able to bade my juniors farewell on this coming Friday. It all depends on how well I'm recuperating from my surgery.

Hence forth, I'm gonna dedicate this special portion to my fellow section mates; let's start with my fellow ORD batch.

De Sheng aka D.S
A great fella I got to know better during our numerous bus trips home. My fellow Yishunians and one up from it, my senior in YTSS. Always a joy to be with, cranked us up with his usual down to earth charisma. Always, soaking himself in his own narcissism. But, we gotta admit he does have the goods. Good luck for your exams! This guy is bound for success in the future.

Gibson aka Ah Yap
A great worker and a great friend. A fellow Devils supporter! A really slow eater... but with a big appetite, justifiable by a big round polished belly. Well, that's his cuteness lol. A natural entertainer and someone whom I can seek solace in. You're a great listener. Hope that his problems will be settled soon and he'll make it big in the future.

Alan aka Mai
Well, truth to behold. He might not a good friend but he really is a good worker. Knows his stuff really well. Give me the feeling of being "qie" by him. Small issues really. Not really that close. But, it's seriously unwise to make another enemy. Hope that he will change.

Woon aka Woon? lol
We both arrived at Gombak at the same time. Kenna shitty details together. Do "00" duties together. They like to call him my suck cock buddy. Sometimes, we get into some minor arguments, mainly in details planning and some job related issues. Really helped me alot. Last but not least, this guy is a real audiophile... $500 plus for a earphone! Crazy money man. He got those special ears, fine tuned to those exquisite melodies. A future lab technician in whichever hospital. All the best my friend!

Kane aka 3SG Kane
Same poly, same class but I didn't really know him back then. Maybe, it's due to our different cliques. A spec who I really respect. respect is earned not demanded. Takes great care of his man well-being. D.S always comment that he does things better than the regulars. Well, there's a bit of truth in it. A good guy blessed with a good built, a good face and a great vocal! He can really sing very well. Maybe, there's still a gap between man and spec. But this spec here is definitely burning those red tapes. Kudos to you!

Chee Kiat aka Chicky
My half batch boy. We stepped into Gombak Base at the same time. Me, Woon, Ivan and you. Ivan left us for greener pasture long ago. That made chicky over here, the most "00" in our section at that time. One week after our arrival, Woon and I were promoted to CPL while chicky was still a PTE. He suffered much during that period. Being a very good hearted "00", he was always being bullied. But still, he stood tall in the face of those trouble. Currently, caught in a really bad patch. Don't worry boy, things will get better. After our departure, you are the most "lao jiao" in the section. Do what you think is right and your pillars of support will pull you through!

Desmond aka Da Si Men
Another fellow Yishunians, a junior from YTSS. What a coincidence. 3 generations of YTSS in MINDEF lol. A somewhat cunning fella... never gonna be bullied... knows the art of protecting himself and doing only what is required of him. Trademark of D.S, paid so much, do that much, do not be under paid. A real good speaker... eloquent in his speech and very tactful in his execution. Always like to cook instant noodles before his gate duties lol. Tend to get into trouble with the management. But, takes his punishment like a man. Serve and forget about it. Another fella with a knack for good music. Good luck ar... remember do anything, try not to get caught!

Albert aka Ah Bert
A guru in music and cars. A no fear driving style. An avid Liverpool fan, one who can sing the "You'll never walk alone" anthem. Another fella who possesses great vocals but die down when facing the mic. FX6021 owner... I introduced this baby to him and never got it myself lol. A former National Rugby player and a horticulturist. An experienced event planner who shares my view about New Age songs. Hey, you gotta get back your physique man! Don't forget, you're an ex commando!

Ming Feng aka Foo
Seen the good and bad of him. He used to be the bane of the section. People change and boy I think he have changed. He has grown. Proud owner of a Toyota Altis. He's now very much into the section, unlike his "00" time. He's somewhat isolated by the section. He had learned the hard way. After his "00" stunts, he has mellowed alot. No complaints from this hard headed junior. Oh ya... another scouser lol. Let's see how you'll treat your new "00". A simple advice, administer the worst only when neeeded and the repercusion will be kept to a minimal.

Boon aka Ah Boon
One of my favourite junior! Charismatic and really helpful! A very hardworking junior, a candidate for best soldier in time to come. A rare Britney supporter. Rare breed lol. Currently on a weight slimming programme. A very discipline individual, sticked to his schedule. Gonna get fit in no time! Will make a very good senior to his juniors. Got his own dressing style... a knack for a fashionable wardrobe. An envy for guys... have alot of platonic relationship I presume lol. I find no flaws in him... maybe I haven't seen it. But this guy is really a great worker and an even better friend.

Jing Xiong aka Thng
Didn't interact with him much. He's a bowler and a provision shop young master. Provides food for the section during mounting. Work without complaint but I'm afraid he's just holding back. Hope that he doesn't "qie" his "00" too much. Guys! Restraint him!

Ashwin aka Ashwin
Son of a retired LTC. Was relatively quiet when he joined the section but started to open up weeks into it. He's so good hearted that I fear he might be taken advantage of. Boy, you need to learn to protect yourself man. I'm very eager to see how you treat your "00" lol.

And last but not least my 2 regular spec, 1SG Ang and 2SG Liu
Heard things about them during my "00" period. Well, they have changed. They cared about their man and are willing to support their man, contrary to those rumours. They are better than most regulars in the company! One thing for sure, they have earned my respect!

2007-05-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

Hail the newly crowned Champions of England!

3 penalties, 2 diferent matches, 1 fortunate save!

2007-02-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year to one and all!

新年快乐恭喜发财
事事顺利事事得意

Goin back to camp tml... 24 Hrs mounting on Day 2 of CNY... Sianz...

More on my Malaysia trip when I have the time...

2007-02-10T18:21:00.000+08:00

One more week to CNY and I've not bought any new clothes. Anyway, I don't think I need any... Day 1 go Malaysia, Day 2 mounting 24 Hrs, Day 3 sleep WTF!!! CNY is declared burned!!!

But I still think I need to get a few new outfit. But I have seriously no idea what I want to get. Think I'll have to mull over it during my Sunday mounting.

2007-02-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah! It's silver! IPPT silver finally! Don't know if I'm going for a gold though.

Heard from Gibson that we might be covering duties for section 2 on CNY eve! It's a complete joke man... WTF! Covering 4 hrs duty for them to have their early reunion dinner. WTF! 4 hrs reunion dinner... is that even possible including the travelling time. Use your brains man!

They might be mounting on CNY eve... but they do have their 3 days holiday breaks for them to enjoy... whereas we will be mounting on Day 2 that leaving us with only Day 1 free. Coz most probably Day 3 we would be so tired to even step out of the house. This is damn fucktup man... and to think that OC has agreed on the idea... WTF!!!

Fuck man! Fuck!

2007-02-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

Been so damn long since I last posted an entry. Guess I'm gonna kick start my blogging fever again.

I'm gettin sick and tired of my work place every single day. 52 mounts left... sounds like it's a freakin long time.

The only consolation I get there is the company of my section mates and my batch mates... other than that there's nothing worth mentioning. It's a fucktup world out there... higher authorities are breeding down our necks every now and then... guess what? We jolly well don't give it a damn! If they want to play with us... and force us into submission... they can try... but people united will never be defeated! Try us!

My section mates have been telling me that I've been too naive. Trusting in good human natured and not believing in plots and back stabbing. Well, my belief still stands... there's still good human nature in certain parts of a person. But, seeing and participating in some devious schemes of back stabbing and sabotage have taught me the importance of awareness among your working mates.

I guess it really needs someone to be the devil for one to really succeed. Screw the higher authorities... push me further up the bottle neck and you'll see how fragile a person's limit can be.

Ok... now for some lighter issues... I'm gonna re-take my IPPT for my quest of a silver award.
The award passed me by when I only managed 6 chin up, 2 off the minimum silver requirement.
After some trainings, I guess I'm ready for it... Wait for my good news!

2006-10-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

Life's simple, but why do we tend to complicate it?